Really sad...

This is the fact that i gonna receive...the one who is fat sure will be ignore by other people.
That's why I gonna be tough, independent, but I lack of confidence.
I am weak in study, but still go in the university, is it a wrong decision?
I don't want anyone can see or read clearly what i want, this is so scary.
I always pretend that I am tough, but actually I am not.
It is so tired, to hold the tears, running inside the eyes.
Fat, is it a sin?
yes ,I am fat, so what? I should shout like this.